…the beauty of seeing things through…

So I have no internet at my new apartment, and my new computer has officially crapped out on me. I’m going to have to send it back, although all sales are final, so they will probably just send me another one. Not that I’m in any real hurry anyway, cause I can’t do much with it anyway.
I’m starting to set up house, thinking of how I want things to look, cleaning and keeping things clean. I really want to have a nice place to live in, considering I don’t plan on going anywhere for awhile. The place I was in down the road was alright but subconsciously I think roommate and I both knew that wasn’t going to be a place we were going to stay. And its true when I said we’d live together until one of us was married off – and it just so happens she beat me to it. But I’m quite happy with that, I’m finding my solitude to be painful, but I’m learning a lot about myself, and trying to become more of an independent person, granted I’ve always considered myself independant, I’m learning how to live and be alive and be alone. I need to do that for myself. I was doing that for awhile til things got all shaken up, but its hopefully starting to settle, and I can just go back to doing what I was doing for awhile until something changes.
I am going to need a roommate soon, its going to sneak up on me and I’m going to be stuck and I can’t let that happen. But I don’t really know where to look or who to ask because honestly there isn’t anyone really I want to live with except my favorite lindsay, but I am not going to put that kind of pressure on her when she has other hopes for what she wants to do in life. I’m sure the Lord has it all worked out somehow. I should be excited to see how He does it. I just know I need to live with someone that’s on the same path, or at least similar. I need to come home and have it be a place where I can retreat and be me and be gross and be vulnerable and raw when necessary. So I don’t want to live with a stranger. I wouldn’t mind living by myself either, but I can’t afford that. So really, its totally up to Jesus and I feel like all I can do is watch and see.
I need to get to that place of contentment again, I’m frustrated that everything has been shaken for me.
I feel like I’m writing about the same things ALL the time.

I was able to spend saturday afternoon with Brian Rosman home from China/Asia, somewhere over seas. That was so much fun hearing about his experiences and what the Lord had done in his life over the past year and just catching up with him. He’s always going to be dear to my heart, and I think he knows that.
THEN I was able to spend some time with some fantastic ladies down at the greek festival, we waited FOREVER to get food, but it was worth it, so good. I love greek food.
Now I’m at my parents house, using their internet, eating their food, doing laundry. The typical sunday afternoon – going to be followed by a really long walk, Jesus and I have some talking to do, and then most likely church. Yup. I enjoy Sunday.

Random Fact #9282
I can’t think of any.