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My roommate has been talking a lot about what it means to contend for someone. Contend, contender, contending. I want to wrap my brain around it. To contend means to strive in opposition or against difficulties.
What does that mean?
It means believing for someone what God has for them, even though they are not walking in it at this moment in time. It’s believing in what you see God is trying to do in a person – and then believing FOR them, that it will come to pass. That they will walk in all that God has for them. To contend, to fight, to struggle in opposition. To fight against the enemy on that person’s behalf. To pray, to battle, to fast, to seek the face of God and intercede for that person to become all that he or she was meant to be.
What if I don’t want to? What if I just want to give up hope, and stop believing for that person for all that God has spoken for them because it seems like it’s never going to happen. Does that make me a horrible person to not want to do that right now? I don’t even want to pray for that person or think about that person. So to contend on their behalf, I don’t have the strength to do that. But I feel in my heart it’s what I should be doing, as a person that is born to contend, to fight, to intercede, to stand in the gap. It’s what I was made to do. But I don’t want to do it, because I have no hope that it would actually come to pass, and I’m tired of being disappointed. I don’t want to do all that work anymore. I feel like I did, like I tried, like I believed for someone, and I lost. And now I’m wounded. I don’t want to fight.
I’m done.
